『personal』 Happy New Year

☆ あけましておめでとう ☆ 새해 복 많이 받으세요 ☆ onnellista uutta vuotta ☆ Happy new year ☆ Frohes neues Jahr ☆

『personal』 ABOUT MY CHRISTMAS DAYS

『2011|12|24』Christmas Eve!

Since we celebrate christmas on Christmas Eve I got all dressed up for the evening. I wore my dress for the first time and my petticoat too. Wow, it was sooooo big. I loved it! 

But the first thing in the morning was to decorate the christmas tree. I do it every year. I just looooove it!!!!



Our table for christmas dinner. We had raclette and it was super delicious! We also had a lot of side dishes too. My favorite one is rice salad for always and forever. 



After dinner it was time for the handing out of the presents. I got some nice things. But I think the one I love the most is my DIR EN GREY - THE UNWAVERING FACT OF TOMORROW photobook. I bought it from the money my grandma gave me for christmas.
Well, to be honest I love all my presents. ^^



After that we sat together and had a great night together. ^^

『2011|12|25』1st Christmas Day

The next day we slept in a bit and discussed with some friends of us, if we wanted to go to the christmas market or not. We decided against it, because it was raining and we decided that the kids wouldn’t have fun to drive all carousels in the rain. After some more discussion they decided to visit us instead.

That gave me another reason to dress up.



I love this dress so much, there no words for it.  It’s the only real brand I own and I really really love it, especially the winged unicorns on it. It screams all fairytale and that is what I love the most on it! 

When they arrived we ate cake and cookies and mohnsemmel. Omg mohnselmmel are the best! 



Now all the butter cookies are gone. 



After cake and cookies we played with the kids and talked about christmas and a lot more. ^^

『2011|12|26』2nd Christmas Day

The next day we were all tired and exhausted so we decided to sleep in and relax. So the last day wasn’t that exciting at all. 

『personal』 Merry Christmas

メリークリスマス 〜메리 크리스마스〜Hyvää Joulua〜Merry Christmas〜Fröhliche Weihnachten

『music』 DIR EN GREY - 我、闇とて･･･ (Unplugged)

限られた時間の狭間で風に染まり
立ち止る俺は誰？
有り触れた言葉の狭間で壊れていき
繰り返す此処は何処？
意志を闇に染て
息を断つ事も簡単で・・・だけどまだほんの少し君に触れていたい
生きる事を許してくれますか？
ある日差しの強い朝、目を開き涙が初めて意味に触れられた気がしたんだ
傍に君が居ると何故だが悲しい
一つになれないのは何故？
手を開き壊れそうな言葉でも、ただ一つでもいい
その胸に突き刺さる程の刃を心にくれ
代償の儚さ　熟れていき　ただ闇とて
夕暮れ　がなり立てる
ある日差しの強い朝、目を開き涙が初めて意味に触れられた気がしたんだ
傍に君が居ると何故だが悲しい
一つになれないのは何故？
手を開き壊れそうな言葉でも、ただ一つでもいい
その胸に突き刺さる程の刃を胸に
忘れてしまえば人は変われるもの？
忘れても、変われても、君でもない事も
正しい価値さえ　冷酷に見えて
せめて今を声に変えて
明日の条件
優しすぎる悲鳴、愛は形を変えて
苦しさも忘れ自分も忘れて
だけど今は　噛み締めて流れる証と・・・
正しい価値さえ　冷酷に見えて
せめて今を声に変えて
明日の条件

生きるという名の証を・・・



kagirareta jikan no hazama de kaze ni somari
tachidomaru ore wa dare?
arifureta kotoba no hazama de kowarete iki
kurikaesu koko wa doko?
ishi o yami ni somete
iki o tatsu koto mo kantan de... dakedo mada honno sukoshi kimi ni furete itai
ikiru koto o yurushite kuremasu ka?
aru hizashi no tsuyoi asa, me o hiraki namida ga hajimete imi ni furerareta ki ga shitanda
soba ni kimi ga iru to naze da ga kanashii
hitotsu ni narenai no wa naze?
te o hiraki koware sou na kotoba demo, tada hitotsu demo ii
sono mune ni tsukisasaru hodo no yaiba o kokoro ni kure
daishou no hakana sa urete iki tada yami tote
yuugure ga nari tateru
aru hizashi no tsuyoi asa, me o hiraki namida ga hajimete imi ni furerarete ki ga shitanda
soba ni kimi ga iru to naze da ga kanashii
hitotsu ni narenai no wa naze?
te o hiraki koware sou na kotoba demo, tada hitotsu demo ii
sono mune ni tsukisasaru hodo no yaiba o mune ni
wasurete shimae ba hito wa kawareru mono ?
wasurete mo, kawarete mo, kimi demo nai koto mo
tadashii kachi sae reikoku ni miete
semete ima o koe ni kaete
asu no jouken
yasashisugiru himei, ai wa katachi o kaete
kurushisa mo wasure jibun mo wasurete
dakedo ima wa kamishimete nagareru akashi to...
tadashii kachi sae reikoku ni miete
semete ima o koe ni kaete
asu no jouken

ikiru toiu na no akashi o… Who am I?




Who stops and stands still as I entrust myself to the wind, in-between the times that are limited?
Where is this place?
This place that comes crushing down, all in-between those common and familiar words?
I taint my intentions with darkness
It's easy to stop breathing...but I just want to feel you just a little more
Will you allow me to live?
One bright morning, I opened my eyes and it came tears I felt like I've realized the meaning for the first time
Don't know why, but I feel sadness when you're near me
Why can't we become one?
I put my hands out for those words that are too fragile, even just one
Please give my heart something, anything like a blade sharp enough to strike you
The emptiness of compensating
It ripens
Into just darkness...
The shouting of the sunset
One bright morning, I opened my eyes and it came tears I felt like I've realized the meaning for the first time
Don't know why, but I feel sadness when you're near me
Why can't we become one?
I put my hands out for those words that are too fragile, even just one
Please give my heart something, anything like a blade sharp enough to strike you
If you just erase your memory do you think that you can change?
If it's forgotten and changed, and you weren't you anymore
The correct value of all things will begin to look cruel
At least let me change what I have now into a voice
The terms and conditions of tomorrow
The screams are too sweet, love changes its shape
Forgetting the pain and forgetting myself
But now, I take it day by day with the flowing proof...
The correct value of all things will begin to look cruel
At least let me change what I have now into a voice
The terms and conditions of tomorrow

With the proof in the name of living...

『2011|11|25』IT'S ALREADY 5:03AM! WHY AM I STILL AWAKE?

Well, that's a pretty good question. Here comes the answer! XDDDD
I started to play a bit with a new layout, I'm not finished yet but I like it a lot. ^^ I don't know when I'll continue it but so far I think it's acceptable how it looks. And all of this reminded me of the fact how much I hate html and css. -.- 

Something different now. ^^
I think I'll start writing again. I know I barley write anything but I try to change it. ^^ Somehow I want to try it again.

That's it so far, I should go to bed know. I'm tired and nearly everything is hurting me. -.-""

『music』 DIR EN GREY

『music』 Dir en grey - DIFFERENT SENSE

Hide Out koufuku to jiyuu ni oritatsu made houfuku to Paradox chishi ryou mimoto fumei sonzai riyuu Right Now kami goroshi no karisuma fu tekiou na sennou kara tsukiyo ni honrou ka Our Blackened Sun haki mitasa re ta yoku najiri ai nareau shuuraku anraku shi ni ue Bad Taste soshite furimawasu dake no nani ga junboku na no ka? Our Blackened Sun dare mo ga byoudou no sora sae tozashi ta hikari totomoni ushinatta koto ni sae ki ga tsuka nai mama mugamuchuu musaboru yume egao ni kakushi te kanpai Hide Out koufuku to jiyuu ni oritatsu made houfuku to Paradox chishi ryou mimoto fumei sonzai riyuu Right Now kami goroshi no karisuma fu tekiou na sennou kara tsukiyo ni honrou ka Our Blackened Sun awaremi oshimu bakenokawa Live Through This World Live Through This World Live Through This World Live Through This World Live Through This World kakimushiru mune nokose nai kizuato aijou nise ta hito no risou dare mo ga byoudou no sora sae tozashi ta hikari totomoni ushinatta koto ni sae ki ga tsuka nai mama mugamuchuu musaboru yume egao ni kakushi te kanpai sukuwa re nai kotae shigamitsuki amae rare nai owari ni shiyou nagareru kuyashi sa mo shikashi ima ni kiduku tatakitsuke rare ta mirai sou... nani o imi suru "aozora"

『2011.05.30』Long time no see!

Wow, I was a long time gone again! There were so much things going on in my life that I had absolutely no time to write. First of all I had to hand in a lot of stuff for school, because it's my last year and in summer I will hopefully graduate.
Afzer the end for my regular grade I had to take the exames. There were four, one in typography. one in english, one in history of design and one in business studies. It was all in one week and I had a lot to do to study for it.
But before the first exam there was my birthday and I turned 23. That was a special day, bacause I spend it without studing and I was able to sleep in. I wore my beloved "Twinkle Journey JSK" with my new petticoat (one of my birthdaygifts). Unfortunally I forgot to take a picture so I can only show you an old one. -.-

Well, my mom and I went to eat some cake and we met at Hackischer Markt, because she was at work. After tjat we went a little shopping and had a lot of fun. After the shoppnig we met up with my dad at Oraninburger Straße and went out for dinner.
The gyu thought that I was to young for alcohol and asked if I was allowed to drink some. That was so funny because I turned 23. because of that I smiled the rest of the evening. ^^

『2011.04.15』

That was a horrible day today!
Today was the opening of the pre-sale for the Dir en gey ticktes. I tried the hole day to get some for the Berlin show. Wow, now I'm totally exhausted and I've got a big headache. My eyes are hurting and I'm not 100% sure if I'll get my tickets. I hope that I was able to understand eventim right. Now the hoping starts. Maybe I should try to get some form Neo Tokyo, but I think that's to crazy. I'll think about it and might be I'll try tomorrow to get some in their shop in Berlin.
Well, the day was like hell. I'm so lucky that I had the hole day some computer lessons, otherwise I wouldn't be able to order them.

Okay, that's it!


Something different now!

I'm in a state close to crazy! It's because of school! I have to much to hand in, and a economics test on wensday and that stupid music video. Arg I never ver wanted to do something like a music video! I don't know why we have to do something that we can't do at school? And I hate to work with final cut. I don't understand that program and I never ever wanted to become a cutter. I only wanted to be come a graphic designer. -.- And I'm a person who likes to do layout and printing stuff and not thoses videos and flash things. I even  hate advertisment. xD I hope there will be a agencie just for magazins or booklayouts.


I think taht's all for now! I don't want to bitch around the hole time. It's just that I needed to say it!
I want my holidays NOW, but I have to wait a few days more. I hope that I will be able to relax, I have to study for my exames in may. But I think I'm able to manage this.


Hope you (will) have/ had a wonderful day!

『2011.04.08』EIN TAG VOLLER GEFÜHLSAUSBRÜCHE! XD

Hallöchen meine Lieben!

Ich wei hab ja schon wieder eine gefühlte Ewigkeit nichts mehr geschrieben! Naja, die Zeit war auch nicht vorhanden.
Erstmal zum Neusten, das heißt es betrifft den heutigen Tag, ne. ^^

Naja, seit gestern Abend 17.00h habe ich an meiner Flashseite gearbeitet und jetzt endlich habe ich's hinbekommen. Yeah, ich bin so stolz auf mich. xDD Neee, mal ehrlich, ich bin total glücklich dass es endlich geklappt hat. Jetzt muss ich nur noch die Inhalte verbessern und dann kann ich die Seite mit gutem Gewissen abgeben. ^o^

Tja, was gab's sonst noch? Ach ja die Ankündigung der Europa Tour von Dir en grey! <3 Ich bin fast kreischend im Klassenzimmer rumgerannt. xD Naja, nicht ganz so schlimm, aber Riki und ich haben schon seit ein paar Tagen gerätselt ob und wann und dann war es heute endlich soweit. ^-^

Im Englischvortrag ohne Stichpunkte hab ich meine zwei bekommen und letzte Woche in der Englishklausur eine eins. Ich weiß zwar bis heute nicht wie ich das geschafft habe, denn an dem Tag als wie sie geschrieben haben ging's mir plötzlich wärend der Klausur total schlecht, aber es hat ja scheinbar nicht geschadet.

Was gibt's sonst so neues?
Am 20.04.2011 ist es soweit und wir ziehen nach Tegel um. Uff, das wird schlimm. xD Dann muss ich noch für meine Prüfung lernen und meine letzte große Aufgabe erledigen. Ich hoffe das klappt auch alles wie ich es mir vorgestellt habe.


Im Moment sind wir mal wieder mit Abgaben überladen, aber so langsam neigt es sich dem Ende. Bis zum 20.04.2011 muss alles abgegeben werden. Das heißt nächste Woche Flash, die Woche danach das Musikvideo in Motiondesign und am Dienstag WK-Klausur. Allerdings kostet das Musikvideo so viel Zeit mit dem drehen und schneiden, dass ich nicht weiß wie ich das jemals zu Ende bringen soll.
Aber wir werden das ja sehen. xD


Sonst gibt's nichts besonderes, so wie immer. xDD

Hier noch ein paar random pics. <3

  
Riki und ich in der Schule o^-^o                           Beim Dreh am Wochenende

『2011.03.11』MEME TIME

Tagged by tayru 

1. Make a list of 5 things that you can see without getting up.
iMac, my conhon, my iPod, my gloves, a water bottle

2. How do you style your hair?
straightening with a hairbow or some hairclips

3. What are you wearing now?
thights, two colored overkneesocks, a turtlenack, girugämesh shirt, butterfly skirt. Doc Martens and a lot of accessoires

4. What's your occupation?
at the moment nothing, maybe waiting is counting? oÔ

5. What do you hear right now?
the teachers voice ^^

6. What's your favorite guilty pleasure treat?
chocolate

7. What is/was for dinner?
-

8. What did you do today?
school, flash and english

9. Dog person or cat person?
100% cat person

10. If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?
-

11. What was the last thing that you bought?
make up

12. If you could afford to go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
I want to go to more than one place. ^^ Finland, Australia, Japan, New Zeeland

13. Where do you see yourself in five years?
can't say a thing

14. Favorite book?
at the moment House of Night

15. What are you doing this weekend?
concert, relax, study

16. If you could play any musical instrument, which one would you play?
more than 100% the drums!!!

17. How are you?
different ^^

18. What are you doing tomorrow?
take a look at 15

19. What are you looking forward to the most?
todays concert <3

20. Is there anything you regret doing or not doing?
-

『2011.03.11』JUST A BIT BLAH BLAH! ^^

I'm sitting at school and I have flash lessons. I don't like flash lessons, becuase it has to much to do with programming and animation.
We have to do a website and today we are taöking about writing a concept for the work process. That's kind of annoying, because we alredy talked last week about it. I wanted to write my concept in the lesson, but he's talking and talking and I can't concentrate.
That's why I decided to write a new entry.

Nothing special happend so far, the only thing I can mention is that I cut my hair. Now my hair reaches barley the chin.
Here you can see. ^^

 

Another thing to tell you is that today is the girugämesh concert and I'm pretty excited about it. I'll go there with Riki and then we meet at the Columbia Club with Lulu. Finally I can see her again. <3
I hope this will be a good night tonight.

『2011.02.08』Nearly died some minutes ago!

Well, I was ready to leave for today, but I did a big mistake and took a quick look at my fb and I found this! It's the offical account of Lauris soloproject. While I was looking through the photos I got a shock. I nearly died. xDD Well, never expected somthing like that.

Okay, that's it with this topic! I just wanted to tell this to somebody. ^^"

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I'm getting more and more addicted to the Lolita style. I always enjoyed to take a look at the girls in the daily_lolita community and now I decided to try it out. Well, I think I will never ever turn into one of thoses OTT Sweet Lolitas, becauses it's to much for me. I'll stick more to Punk Lolita and Gothic Lolita. And it's not only because I love black and dark colorways. ^^
And due to this all I'm in a little conflict with myself.

It's about the new Alice and the pirates JSK and Skirt. The reservation starts on 10th at 17:00pm and I'm really unsure if I want to try to get it. I think I have to talk to my mom, if she is willing to let it be my birthday present. ^^"
And if she's willing I got a second problem. I can't decide between the red and the black JSK.

  

I'm a bit sad, because they aren't re-releasing the lavander version and I really love it, even if it's a lighter color.

I don't know why, but I think the print looks best on the levander. I really love this one, but I would be very unsure if I would wear it.
That's why it's good that there are only two colors for me to decide, because the navy one isn't my color.

I have to say that this one looks really pretty too, but I don't like blue colorways and I think I wouldn't wear this one.
So I have to decide between the red and the black one.

I need some help to decide wich one is the best! ^^

『2011.02.03』

Well, I nearly forgot to write here! ^^" That's because I visited my sister in Austin/ Texas for christmas and after the holidays I lay sick in bed for two weeks.  After thoses two weeks I had to hand in a lot of stuff for school and had to write one exam and one test. That was pretty hard, but I came througth them very well. After the two days of hard work, we hadn't to do so much at school, because we were prepareing the day of the open door. And in the last week before holidays we did a lot of field trips. 

The first to mention was the one on tuesday. We went to the Nordic Embassies. Do you know what I mean? That's the Embassy wich combines Finland, Sweden, Danmark, Iceland and Norway. There was a little exhibition of PANTON - dansih furniture design.

  

  

 

The next day we went do Dessau to vostot the Bauhaus. We went there by train and theses were some of my coldest two hours in life.
Here are some more pics! ^^

  

  

Well, on thursday was my last day of school and I've got my certificate. On friday we had the day of, because we had to be there at "The Day Of The Open Door".

That's all for now! Have a nice day. ♥

『travel』 Christmas 2010 in Austin/ Texas and a wonderful week!

Well, where should I start? You're right, I should start at the beginning! ^^
I was there to visit my sister. It wasn't really planned for last christmas, because of the lack of money, but Susan her hostmom asked if I wanted to visit them again for christmas and she even paid the flight. She's so damn' crazy!

So it came that I had to pack my bags, but bacause of so many school work I ended up with packing may bags at the 23rd of December and my flight was the next day at 06:55am. So we (my mom, my dad and I) had to get up at three o'clock, because we had to be two hours befor depature at the airport.
We arrived there at 04:47am.

Finally we arrived at the gate and then we got to know that the flight was canceled and that we have to be rebooked, if it's possible.
I think we waited a bit over an hour, because we were so early! Luckily I got a new flight but it was supposed to go at eleven o'clock.
My mom and I decided to wait at the airport, due to the weather. It was really snowy and we were affraid that we hadn't enough time for a trip home and back again. My dad decided to go home, because he was so tired.

Now I had to fly to Amsterdam, Memphis, Austin. My first flight was over Paris, Cicinett and then Austin.

After a nice breakfast with my mom and a very boring wait I was allowed to get to the airplain and bording started more or less at time, but the start was delayed.
I was kind of stressed out when we arrived in Amsterdam, because I had less than one hour to get my bording pass and ran through half the airport to get to the right gate. Plus my mobile phone wasn't working, because I forgot to activate the roaming. That was really annoying.
After a lot of questions and some nearly breakdowns I sat in the airplain to Memphis. After a seven hours flight I arrived there safely and had to get into the USA. That went faster as I thougt and I had a bit more time to calm down (because of my phone). After another securitycheck I went to my gate and waited there for the bording.
This was the first flight wich was really on time and I arrived safely in Austin. I hopped of the airplain and went through the airport to the luggage claim where my sister and her friend Angie were waiting.

After grabbing my luggage we went to her car and drove home. There were Susan and her parents waiting for aur arrival.  There was a big welcome back and I hand over the small gifts from Germany. Also I had to hang up my stocking, wich I had to bring. Then we put the last christmas gift under the tree and went to bed.

The next morning started at eight o'clock, because we decided to start the gift giving at nine. After we finnished with dressing up we went down and the "Merry Christmas Greeting" started.
We sat down at the couch and started with the stockings. We got a lot of small and useful things, like some manicure sets. After that Susan was sharing out the gifts, wich had our names on it. I've go a lot of things, even though I said I don't want anything.
But my favourite gift was the one from my sister, a unicorn plushie! ♥

Well, after the gift giving and a lot of "Thank Yous" we had a nice breakfast with pancakes and scrambled eggs. After that Krissy, Angie and I had to went out, because the two had to look after a little cat from a friend. So we went there and feed her and played with her. That was fund and the little kitty is so über cute.♥
Then we went to Heike, another Au Pair. There the three exchanged presents and planned something for the week.

The next day was shopping day! krissy, Angie, Heike, Mareike and I went to the mall and spend nearly the hole day there, because the four girls couldn't decide what they wanted to buy. ^^ Well, after a lot of looking through so many things I didn't like I ended up with buying a dress. So I decided that's the christmas present from Joyce (grandma of the hostfamily), because she gave us 50$ for shopping as a gift.

After shopping  we went home and had dinner. the three girls of us decided to watch a movie, but I can't remeber it. ^^; 

The 27th of december started late at somthing around ten o'clock. We decided to visit the Capitol of Austin. So we had a short breakfast and drove to downtown.

After visiting the Capitol we met with Heike and went to the Cheescake Faktory for lunch! Well, my lunch was just a cheescake, because it's so yummy and after one piece you're so full you can't anything else. ^^ At the evening we watched some films again. I think we watched Robin Hood and The Timetraveler.


The next day we went to downtown again, because Krissy and Angie wanted to take a preview on their tattoo. After that we did a small sightseeingtour and looked for some postcards. We found some nice and the girls decided to buy some more Texas-tees. They are so crazy about Texas.
I think that was pretty much we did this day. Haha, not so much but, well.

At the 29th we did a daytrip to San Antonio. That was really cool, because we did the River Walk. We also visited the mall and spend there a lot of time, but still it was a really nice day. The wether was really good, something around 24 degrees. For me it was pretty hot. ^^ But my sis was still freezing. 

Well, here are some pics! ^^

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The last one is the best! ♥

Well, I can't really remember what did the other days. xD It's just to long ago! The one day we went to the Starbucks meeting of the girls, that was fun. And for new years eve we went to Saras hous to celebrate. Sara had to work so we decided to visit her, so that she'll not alone.

 

 

 

More or less that was all. The next day Krissy and Angie drove me to the airport, because I had to fly home. We did a last stop at starbucks and bought some frappochinos.
Finally we arrived at the airport and I got my tickets and then the big farawell started. But we had to finish it fast, because the both wanted to go downtown for their tattoo.

The flight back home was good and nothing went wrong. I arrived safely on the 2nd of January at home. The only thing that was bad was, that I cought a cold, because my sister was a bit ill. But all in all it was a week of pretty much fun. ^^